..feEL likE a piecE of sHit nOw..
yes.. as the title of today's entry says.. i feel like a piece of shit now.. haiz.. it always gets like this when i'm having pms.. arghhhz.. i hate it.. i always go all over-emotional.. it's such a toopid feeling.. to think i have to go through it two times a month.. i wonder if i'll go nuts one day.. i know that as time goes by.. my emotions are getting harder and harder to control.. i get angry or upset over the littlest of things.. its very taxing on the mind you know.. i get paranoid and think too much.. and suddenly.. my tears become my best friend.. sad.. i have such an ugly other side to myself.. i hate feeling this way.. but just seems to be getting worse and worse.. it's a very horrible feeling.. but what can i do.. they are my monsters.. and i have to fight them on my own.. haiz.. am i hard to get along with? would others still want to be my friend when they see this other side of me..? i don't want to feel this way.. when i get upset.. i make him get upset too.. i feel like i'm letting him down.. he doesn't deserve my tantrums and moodswings.. i hope you don't regret being with me.. and i just want to say that i'm sorry..

what a depressing entry.. =S ah well.. i feel better after getting it out of my system..