..muahaHahA.. niCky's bAck..!!
hey heyz.. i'm finally blogging in again.. after over a month.. =X i think mel must be rejoicing once she sees this post..

much has happened.. but think it will be abit boring to recap everything.. so i'll just mention about certain events..

11th Feb
baby's birthday!! but we couldn't celebrate coz he had to work full shift.. so i could only meet up with him after work around 10+pm.. a brought a lighter and a few candles from home when i only needed one.. but adopting the singaporean attitude i decided to bring 4 just in case i was unlucky enough that all of them wouldn't get lit up.. =X heehee.. went to coffee bean to buy a slice of dear's favourite cake - chocolate of a thousand leaves - before going to work.. and i borrowed the fridge in the restaurant to store the cake while i was working.. muahahahahha.. anywayz.. when i met him after work i brought him over to the istana park opposite ps.. wanted to sit next to the water but there were already alot of people there.. we found a spot.. told him to close his eyes.. open the cake box and attempted to light the candle.. was quite a windy night.. and from the sound of the lighter he already knew what i was trying to do.. the i told him to open his eyes and i sang him the birthday song in english and in a cat version consisting of only one word.. "meow".. haha.. then he blew out the candle and we shared the cake.. =) he later told me that he was so paiseh coz some people were looking at us.. =X

14th Feb
Valentines day.. spent it working again.. super tiring.. non-stop flow of customers.. anyway.. that's not important.. it was the first time i received flowers on v'day from a boyfriend..!! =X hahaha.. got a big sunflower.. =D i was so surprised when he turned up with the bouquet at the ps bus stop that night.. when i was face to face to him i was grinning from ear to ear.. i couldn't stop smiling.. and he even claimed i was blushing.. i mean.. it was night time.. u mean u still can tell when a person is blushing?? =X i felt so touched.. i felt my eyes go a little damp.. haha.. sort of felt like crying..

all in all.. there were 3 important dates in Feb.. our 9th month anniversary, dear's birthday and v'day.. and i got him 3 presents.. a garfield soft toy with garfield hugging his teddy bear called pookey.. a red addidas hooded jacket and the "my date with a vampire 3" vcd set..

went down to malaysia for chinese new year too.. haven't been there for two years.. sort of a yearly tradition to have family reunion there.. ate like crazy.. think i gained weight from that trip.. =S

and recently we had captain's ball competition.. we got 4th.. muahahaha.. some of you must be thinking.. only got 4 teams then we got 4th right? more like 24 teams.. considered not bad yea? =) even though we didn't win.. the competition let us become alot more bonded together.. we've become so much closer that week than we ever had since the first day of school.. i am even talking so much more to classmates whom a hardly talked to in the past.. =D after the finals.. we stayed back in school and did alot of lame but fun things together.. played pepsi cola.. shouted cheers and played games.. i even got piggybacked despite my weight.. =X haha.. we sort of went nuts.. after that we headed to marina south for steamboat..

yesterday i went to school to see the chinese dance's concert.. i was great.. especially the number that had dancers with ribbons of rainbow colour.. haha.. so i was attracted more to the colours than the dance itself.. =X and man.. can noorin dance.. she was excellent.. i think she should be in hip hop more than chinese dance.. she also had a hot number.. doing a latin dance.. =p haha..
went shopping after that.. haha.. bought two tops from mango.. both being white with colourful patterns on them.. typical of me right?

been exercising more of late ever since captain's ball.. on friday we stayed back to play badminton after school.. then gab tried to teach us volleyball.. i tell you.. it's a very painful sport.. my arms looked more as if someone had pinched me when i went to work.. looked kind of scary.. blue black spots here and there.. and i hurt my right thumb.. ouch.. still hurts abit now.. hope nothing's wrong with it.. =S yesterday morning met up with zm and ym.. we were supposedly going to do some jogging around their sch track.. but we ended up only jogging one round.. =X haha.. then we wanted to play badminton in the hall.. but some idian guy whom i suppose is the caretaker said we couldn't play without a teacher's permission.. so we ended up going to a badminton court between the nearby HDB blocks to play.. was kind of difficult coz it was quite windy.. then after that they gave me a tour of their school.. and to my delight there was a pond with red-eared terrapins in it..!! muahahhaha.. btw.. i'm talking about serangoon jc.. i kind of find their school rather small.. the canteen looks so compressed.. i think even whitley sec's canteen is much bigger.

we had our oral com presentation on tuesday.. and our group was liked dressed up so "lok-kok" while the others were dressed up all formal.. haha.. so paiseh man.. we looked so out of place.. but what to do.. we were supposed to be dressed as toilet cleaners.. haha.. maybe i'll upload a few photos of that day later on..

me and dear just celebrated our 10 month anniversary on wednesday.. we didn't really celebrate.. i waited for him to knock off from work at 10pm.. so i spent an hour plus roaming around town while waiting for time to pass.. did a little shopping.. buying only trinklets though.. trying to cut down on buying clothes.. i think i have too much of them already.. so i'm trying to channel my spending power towards earrings and accesories instead.. and i got tonnes of earrings now.. alot of big dangly ones.. haha.. and mum says she's bought like 30+ pairs for me over there in australia since she went back during dec.. and good news.. my mum's coming down to singapore on the 21st of march.. yay!! but my exams will be around that time frame too.. so i'm going to be kind of busy then.. =S

i was feeling kind of down on monday.. my dad told me some things about my mum which i really didn't want to hear and me made me say things which i really didn't want to say.. haiz.. i felt really sad about my parents being divorced then.. don't know why.. maybe it was because it was that time of the month.. or maybe because realisation suddenly hit me.. maybe i was just ignoring the sadness all this while and after hearing what my dad had to say it kind of let abit of the sadness leak out from that safe which i had hid them in.. i felt so bad.. i didn't want to be in the middle.. i din't want to have to take sides.. if i had a choice.. i would never want to be in that position.. i felt really guilty inside.. like i had betrayed the trust bestowed onto me.. and i let all the feelings of sadness.. grief.. anger come out from the only outlet i knew of.. i cried.. not just a few tears.. but in big sobs.. i wondered.. why do i have to have a broken family? what would life be if i actually had a happy and complete family? how different would my life be? why do i have to be stuck in the middle? because whatever one party does will still affect me either way? why do i have to be put in such a position? why why why? many thoughts in my head.. i believe everything has a reason.. maybe i'm supposed to learn a lesson from this? maybe it's because one day i will come across someone who is living the same life and i am supposed to be the one to help him or her? or maybe it just happens.. nothing to do with me.. just a consequence of a decision made by two adults.. a decision that would bring about anger and sadness.. one that can never be reversed.. one where the child has no say in.. one which will always be there.. never to disappear.. whatever it is.. i had to bear the consequences of crying so much.. my eyes were all swollen and my eyelids were all out of shape the next day.. and there was the oral presentation.. but what to do? the show must go on.. .. ..

enough about the sadness..

we're having a class gathering on sat.. our first official classgathering.. we're going to sentosa to have fun fun fun..!! yay!!

i have notes to download and print out right now.. darn.. always busy busy busy.. when can i finally have nothing to do and just have time to relax all day?

my neopets are dying.. haven't been playing for so long.. they must be starving now.. the poor little darlings..

i need to clean up my room again.. dratz..!! i just cleaned it up like a 2-3 weeks ago and it looks like a mess again.. arghhz..

xiao zhu's tank is getting dirty too.. =X and siew mai is getting bigger now.. alot greedier too.. =p

i'm starting to get lame.. haha..

joyce and khad.. i miss you guys..!!

hey hey.. my birthday is coming soon..!! in like less than a month.. *hint hint* muahahhahahahahaha..

i just discovered that rainbow colour is not just the official colour for gays but also for lesbians..!! =O haha.. and it's my favourite colour.. haha.. i better watch out not to attract unwanted attention if you get my drift.. =X

think i'll stop here or i will never stop ranting on and on.. hope you guys haven't given up reading my blog.. =X haha.. i noe it's more like expired rather than stagnant.. =X hee.. byebye..