i'm back again..

wahahahhahahahahha..

i attemped to post pictures.. but apparently hello is having some problems and i can't log in.. darn..!! -_-"

i've just heard some rather disturbing things from khad, one of my best buddies from secondary school .. coz last week was joyce's birthday.. and we're gonna go celebrate it tomorrow along side with deepti's birthday.. think we're gonna ahave a bbq at sentosa.. u see back in secondary school.. me, khad, joyce and jing were the best of friends back in sec 4.. we called ourselves the mina gang which means the "malay ah lian gang".. i was mina tinggi (tall).. joyce was mina gumok (fat).. khad was mina jumbu (i forgot what that means.. i think short? =X).. and jing was mina cruz? (lolz.. dunno how to spell but it means pretty or cute.. memory is failing me right now..) well.. so khad told me that jing was asking her whether she could not go for the gathering.. when i heard about it i was shocked.. =S it is so unlike her.. i mean.. it is joyce's birthday.. can't she at least come down as a form of courtesy os something.. okay.. so i guess part of the reason she doesn't want to come is because there are others who will be going to whom she's not so close to and doesn't talk to at all.. but still.. WE are still there.. and from what khad told me.. it seems like she's really reluctant to come.. kinda dissappointed to be hearing that.. and to add to that.. she and joyce were the closest to each other between the 4 of us.. i was closer to khad.. and look at what has become of it now.. how time changes things.. from such a closeknit group.. we've become seperate entities.. lolz.. i dunno what i'm talking about.. =X anyways.. khad said that she tried to persuade jing.. but i don't think it's working.. and what's worse.. before joyce's birthday when they were discussing abt presents.. jing was telling khad that whatever she buys then she'd just chip in with the money.. she didn't make any offer to go look for it or what so ever.. hmm.. girl.. i dunno what's wrong with you.. but i hope you won't continue to be like that.. if not sooner or later it's gonna cause a strain in our friendships.. =S

well.. i'm still at the pao pao cha guan right now.. still being a LONER in school.. wahahahaha...

here's a lil poem a friend of mine wrote.. the story behind it.. ... ...

well.. he says the poem is about me.. you see.. i got to know him alot better while i was in sec 4.. he's a year older but he was retaking his O's and he came back for normal lessons in school.. first we were good friends.. then after the O'lvls i sort of started to develop some feelings for him.. then we were pretty close.. we'd meet up for movies and he came all the way down to great world to look for me after work.. if not we went out with our group of friends.. i knew i liked him.. but i don't know whether he knew it.. but the thing was.. i didn't think he'd like me back.. so after some time.. when nothing seem to progress between us.. i slowly moved on.. and liked someone else.. and we slowly lost touch too..

well.. now we're still pretty good friends.. he's studying at sp.. we've been planning to meet up.. but time constraints lar.. lolz.. sorry buddy.. try to meet up as soon as possible yar.. i want a tour of SP..!! wahahahahahahaha..

so here goes.. (did i mention that i'm freezing here in the pao pao cha guan.. somebody come and save me from my loneliness quick..!! =S )

(p/s: the part about crying.. it was just added in to make the poem longer.. haha..)

Regret

I have never been so depressed.
My body language manifests my unrest.
Memories of the past seem so vivid,
As if they were mocking me with it.

Lying on my bed reminiscing the past.
“How could I miss the opportunity?” I asked.
“Shouldn’t had let you go.”
This phrase has been running in my mind.

Fate brought us together.
Her smile makes me closer.
Cupid shot me with an arrow.
Stupidity turned me mellow.

Second hand clicks away,
Hours spent with you are always so fine.
Days go by,
My feelings for you began to define.

I cannot deny.
I cannot hide.
Albeit my love is true,
But inferiority holds me to a truce.

Finally I got over the confusion.
I picked myself up to settle the love commotion.
Then again my words do not match my emotions.
I made her cry, she left in an instance.

Days became weeks.
Weeks became months.
Distance grew between us.

Then I heard she got a boyfriend.
And I blame myself for dabbling.
Carpe diem minimum credula postero
This is my advice to all my friends in love.

Don't let opportunity go pass.
You will regret it.