hungry..

moodswings..

cough..

homework..

these are the things that are bothering me right now.. -_-"

I WANT AN M.C.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my brain is feeling really overused.. not that i've been using it for logical stuff like studying.. =X i think my cough and phlem are getting to me.. making me feel moody.. plus it's almost that time of the month.. which means moodswings will come and go anytime.. anywhere.. for no reason whatsoever..

arghz.. i need a BREAK..!!

studying and working at the same time is starting to get tough.. especially when this semester is SO MUCH tougher.. i think ief and aaa are gonna kill my brain cells.. i SUCK and let me repeat that S.U.C.K at econs and accounting.. i'm never good with numbers..

oh wells.. enough dwelling in self-pity already..

as i was really really tired this morning when i blogged.. i missed out some stuff..

i stayed over at dear's place on friday night.. but unprepared.. didn't bring clothes or anything at all.. it was a last minute decision.. poor guy had to sleep in the living room coz the spare mattress was in use..

and on friday my ief tutor miss wong was on MC.. so we had to join KOH POH TEE'S class.. OMG..!! she is one damn FREAKY teacher lar.. among all the teachers who've taught me.. she's second one to instill such fear in me.. the first was my sec 3 & 4 chemistry teacher.. and they both have similar characteristics.. both old women probably in their 50s.. for my sec sch teacher se was a spinster.. =X i don't know about KPT.. anyway.. back to why i fear koh poh tee so much..

1) she's damn sarcastic and i mean that with a capital S.A.R.C.A.S.T.I.C..
2) she can just ask you any question at anytime.. and if you aren't able to answer.. she'll just keep bombarding you with questions.. slow and painful torture.. =S
3) she's damn fierce when she's angry.. like machiam pms liddat..
4) she drives students who step on her tail or rub her the wrong way out of the LT or classroom
5) she is very NEGATIVE and always has negative things to say..
6) she keeps scaring us about how utterly DIFFICULT it is to score in ief.. i'd be VERY HAPPY with a just pass thank you.. =X
7) she's really smart and knows her stuff lar.. so answering her questions and giving her a satisfactory answer is really touch
8) you don't want to get on her bad side.. she always says that she'll "take revenge" someday.. *scared*
9) she threathens to have us all exported to FIT instead coz we're all not up to her standard.. and she apparently looks down on the FIT students.. always saying that they are lousier and that the module is easier..
10) she always talks about stuff that are not in our notes during lectures and always can't finish on time.. and it's really hard to understand what she's teaching..

wah lao.. i sound so WEAK lar.. imagine letting someone scare you so much.. *deadpans*

anyways.. today work was as normal.. working split shift.. 12-4pm/6-10pm.. and dear suprised me by coming down to accompany me suring my break.. aww.. such a sweet thing to do.. sorry you had to wait so long at great world city.. =S the crowd today was constant.. so we were really that busy.. but i did get really irritated by a few of my younger colleagues.. i won't even bother to explain.. i am a highly irritable person and sometimes i myself can't even explain why i get irritated.. when moodswings come they come.. and when they go they go.. no questions asked.. the coming part is really easy.. but going.. that's hard.. it's really easy for me to get angry or irritated or upset.. but takes a long time for my mood to come back.. i can't control it.. it is just like that.. so don't blame me if i don't feel like talking.. i'm just waiting for my mood to come back and doing the best thing i can do by shutting up.. because when i'm not in the mood i'm really straight forward and i don't care who you are.. i might just say something you aren't gonna like and it'll just make things worse.. so there.. i've said my piece..

dunno what's wrong with me lar.. i'm a WEIRD person.. gonna go do my homework and print my notes soon.. ciao~*

this is a really nice song by kelly clarkson..

"Because Of You"

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hardI've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you


i suddenly feel like eating the egg dou hua from chomp chomp at serangoon garden.. anyone wants to go with me..??