omg..

Omg..

OMg..

OMG...................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i haven't been blogging for a while..
been really busy and tired..
lots of thoughts have been going through my mind the past week..
some good some bad..
some happy some sad..
haiz..
but that's not the important thing now..
i just found out from one of my sec school bext buddies..
one of friends is going for an operation..
an OPERATION..!!
OH MY GOD..
he won't say what exactly is wrong with him..
but from what i've gathered..
it seems it's something to do with the stomach..
and he needs to have an operation..

i know that god has plans for all of us..
BUT..
it just seems so unfair..
why do good people get all this kinda stuff happening to them..?
*sigh*
weiye claims that he's alright and it's not a big thing..
but is he just putting on a brave front..
issit because he doesn't want us to worry..??
i wonder how he's taking it..
if i were in his shoes..
i'd be scared as hell..
yes.. most ops are successful..
especially with s'pore's super good technology and stuff..
but of course there is still the fear..
you're going under the knife for god's sake..
anything could happen..
imagine putting your life in the hands of another..
where precision is everything..

and i feel so bad..
i feel like i've neglected my friend..
so didn't find it out from him himself..
i found out about it from another..
and i haven't talked to him for so so long..
not since i got my naval piercing anyway..
it was just two months ago..
but so much has changed..
he even got attached since then..
but now he's single again..
the relationship lasted all but a week and 6 days..
and again i didn't find out from him himself..
i found out from friendster..
arghz..
what a lousy friend i am..
i feel like i've let him down..
i haven't been reading his blog lately too..
thus my not knowing of his current situation..
sorry dude..
i've not been doing my part as a friend..
but i promise to visit you as often as i can kk..

we've always been planning to meet up..
ever since before i went to aussie..
but never found the time..
just me, weiye, maurice and tianyu..
like the good ole days..

and now we're finally gonna meet..
but under a hell different circumstances..
ye's gonna go see the specialists this sat..
then from there we'll see when we should go visit..

i feel scared for him..
i'm glad that he's being brave about it..
and taking things in his stride..
so much has hit him in such a short period of time..
breaking up with his gf..
and now this..
i know he loves the girl alot..
and he's still doing everything he can for her..
even when they're just friends..
he's really hurting alot over the loss..
and him being the emotional kind..
it must be really difficult..
to lose someone you love so much..
and have her say that you can only be friends..
and not to wait for her..

but from his blog i've seen his fears..
he fears about the op..
is it gonna be painful..
what's gonna happen..
and after the op..
can he go home in a week..?
or does he have to wait for a month..
who's gonna take care of him when his parents are working..
he can't go out and play..
no sports.. no nothing..
just rest rest and more rest..
and what will become of the girl he loves..
we she forget him..?
will she go back to her ex..?
will someone else steal away her heart during this period of time..?

dude..
sorry to hear about what's happened..
cheer up..
we'll be behind you..
there for you when you need us..
that's what friends are for..
=)

this is very cliche..
but..
life really is a very vulnerable thing..
it can just go at anytime..
one moment you're as strong as an ox..
and the next you're down with some illness you can't even pronounce the name of..
you never know when something will just hit you..
WHAM..!
and take everything dear to you..
so we really should treasure all that we have..

i'm guessing ye doesn't want to disclose the name of the illness..
coz it's something big..
and he doesn't want us to worry..
he said in his blog that the illness could lead to diabetic or kidney failure..
omg..
that sounds serious..

ye..
if you see this..
take good care of yourself..
be brave..
and cheer up..
don't be so sad or scared..
we're rooting for ya..
anything just tell us..
we'll be there for you..
=)

god.. i sound like sucha nag..
maybe i'm making a big fuss of the whole thing..
but still..
friends are really important to me..
and sometimes i tend to place friends above everything else..
even boyfriends..
which has happened before..
and trust me..
it's a very ugly thing to happen..
when you're torn between both..

it's gonna be boring ranting about my past week..
so i'll try to summarize it..

thursday's presentation went quite well..
we managed to use exactly 20mins..
the maximum time for the presentation..
after school me, clem, gab and thea went to marina south for steamboat..
not bad..
we ate a whole lot of food coz we hadn't eaten the whole day..
imagine..
we were in sch from 10am - 5pm and we never ate anything..
just shared a box of chicken biscuits..

friday was normal school day..
after school dear came over to my place..
we watched "charlie & the chocolate factory" on my lappy..
slacked around at home..
had dinner and then i went to meet the others..
others being ling, clem and gab..
we were going to one fullerton to club..
in the end mel suprised us by coming..
initially she said she was gonna give it a miss..
gabbie only joined us much later..
the club was okay..
and the music pretty good..
loads of r&b and hiphop..
but the dancefloor was packed..
too small and too many people..
we danced and danced..
saw a few of my sec school friends there..
mel went off earlir..
and we saw a friend making out with some guy..
and it was getting kinda hot..
i don't know if she was drunk..
maybe she knew exactly what she was doing..
but it's weird to see someone you know in sucha a different light..
you never really know people til you see things like this..

they ended the party around 3.50am..
so early..
took forever to get our bags from the locker area..
we hung around to talk..
then we shared a cab..
as the others were all staying in the west..
while i'm in the north east..
they dropped me at somerset mrt..
i had hoped that i'd be able to catch the nightrider6..

but i waited and waited..
for like 15minutes..
it didn't come..
think i missed the last one..
then this guy sits at the same bench as me..
asks me whether there's still any buses..
i say i dunno and he should check the board..
he asks wad bus am i taking and where i stay..
so i tell him nr6 and serangoon..
he then calls someone..
few mins later a car comes..
it's his friends..
he goes over, opens the door and talks to his friends..
then he turns back and asks..
"want a lift..??"
i shake my head and say no and that i'd wait for the bus..
he replies that the last bus is gone and that his friend and him live near serangoon..
and i do a stupid thing and say "okay"..
so i get into the car..
and then suddenly a thought comes to my head..
SHIT LAR.. WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING..??!!
i'd just gone on and accepted a lift from 3 strangers..
what if they kidnap me and try something funny..
what if they drive me to some ulu place..
for a moment i panic..
then i notice my hp in my hand..
and think to myself..
i can always call for help..
wah laoz..
like it'll be that easy..
so i look anxiously at the road..
looking at the route he's taking..
then they ask me qns..
like my name, age, where i'm studying etc etc..
they were like.. "huh? so young?"
then one of them goes.. i'm only 19..
so i'm guessing the others are 20+..

anyway.. i do get home safe and sound..
and in one piece..
i swear i will NEVER take rides from strangers again..
i am SO STUPID and GULLIBLE..!!
i can get cheated so easily..
dissappointed in self..
luckily i ran into good people..
not people with evil intentions..
PHEW..

caught "zathura" on sat night after work..
wanted to watch saw 2 but they only had first row seats..
so we decided to watch zathura instead and catch saw 2 another time..
after buying the tix at marina square gv..
we went to carls jr to slack..
i had a cheesecake..
nice..!!
but their chicken salad rocks i tell yea..
=)
wanted to eat that.. but i scared i couldn't finish it..
coz it's a big portion..
and dear didn't feel like eating either..
so we caught the 12am show..
home after work..

sat and sun were really tiring..
coz of work..
we're short staffed..
so less people to share the workload..
thank god this week there's 2 new guys coming..
fresh o'lvl students..
and one of our part timers in coming back to work after months..
due to exams and stuff..
work is really damn tiring..
was really bushed after work on both days..

some customers really ought to be SHOT..
i shalln't elaborate why..
some are really too unreasonable..
arghz..
they disgust me..
felt like strangling some of them..

-to be continued-