new look for the new year..
as you can see.. i've got a new blogskin.. much more simple and less confusing as the previous one.. just that i haven't put in my links yet.. too lazy lar.. got too many of them..=S and i also got a new tagboard which is sooooooooooooooooooooo CUTE lar.. =X

but now the space is like way smaller.. which means even smaller pictures.. so if you guys want to look at pictures.. i think it's better if you click on them to see the enlarged versions..

speaking about pictures.. i don't know why but everytime i try to use picasa to post pics.. the next day.. my pictures can't be seen anymore.. they only come out as those small red crosses.. irritating.. so now i'm back to using hello to post them.. picasa to make collages and hello to post.. so troublesome.. -_-"

this sucks man.. today i didn't get to go shopping.. nor did i get to watch the chn 8 9pm show or america's next top model.. =( boo~*

on the bright side.. today's e-commerce test didn't seem so bad.. highly passable.. but not so highly scorable coz the mcqs and true/false questions were kinda tough.. =S after the test i went over to his place for dinner.. yums.. homecooked meals..!! =) watched tv and slacked around.. and only got home around 1+am..

oh yea.. last friday.. when i went over to fifi's place for steamboat.. i ended up drinking too much and puking in the end.. coz after dinner we played this game with some dices.. you are not supposed to guess the total number on the top face of the dices.. and somehow someway i kept losing lar.. ended up having to drink 8 times.. each time was half a cup of wine.. the first 2 were red and the other 6 were white..

at first i still felt okay.. just that my face was hot and i could feel and hear my heartbeat at my temples.. was kinda wobbly too.. then i went over to meet dear at j8 to catch a show.. by then i started to feel like shit coz i felt weak and like i wanted to puke.. all i wanted to do was sit and rest.. felt highly uncomfortable.. in the end i couldn't take it and rushed to puke in the cinema toilet.. after that i didn't feel like coming out of the toilet.. just felt like crap.. dear even had to ask the cinema staff to come in and get me.. so embarrassing.. =S i swear i am keeping away from bishan gv for some time.. or at least til they can't remember me.. =X please don't let me get attached to bishan gv for the coming attachment.. =S

then when we were heading in for the movie.. i puked again at one of the rubbish bins outside of the theatre.. ended up sleeping through the first part of the show.. oh yea.. we were watching narnia.. i woke up like after one third of it.. and i felt alot better..

the show was pretty good.. very lotr-ish but without the longwinded-ness.. and the griffons and unicorns were so COOL..!! =D

after the show he was staying overnight at my place and when we got back to mine.. i puked one last time.. gross lar.. the feeling of puking is so so so unbearable..

he got kinda pissed at me for drinking so much til i ended up at that state.. and ended up nagging at me.. i know it was for my own good.. and he was really very worried for me.. kept askin if i was okay and whether i wanted to skip the show and go home instead.. so i want to say sorry for making you worry so much that time dear.. and thanks for worrying about me and taking care of me.. =)

i watched derailed with him on monday.. the show was okay.. i thought the twist at the end was pretty interesting.. should jennifer aniston should stick to comedies.. she kinda sucked at her role.. looked more like a bimbo..

the trip this weekend is confirmed.. me, thea, ling, gab and clem are going to kelong on friday and coming back on sunday.. so exciting.. =) can't wait to go tanning.. hope it won't rain during our trip.. which is highly unlikely.. but at least not everyday..

won't be seeing dear from now til after sunday.. coz he'll be busy tomorrow with project stuff and i'm already leaving on friday.. oh my god.. so many days.. =S gonna miss him.. =(

anyways.. tomorrow's gonna be my first spanish lesson for IS.. hope it'll be interesting and that the teacher won't be too strict.. finally it's thursday and i get to wake up late.. maybe i'll go over to town and do a lil bit of shopping after school if i feel up to it.. =X

on a lighter note.. i got a blast from the past yesterday.. i was online on msn chatting with one of my best guy friends from sec school who's in ns now.. then we were talking about ns then about how he should find a gf so that he can look forward to weekends since he finds ns life so sian.. then we talked abit about relationships and stuff and he was telling me things like meeting wrong people is so that we know what we want in the future and we know what we like and don't like and how to handle the same situation properly in the future blah blah blah.. that kinda stuff.. then he went.. "maybe if i had known myself better.. my relationship with ****.. or even you.."

i was confused at this part.. so i was like.. "what even me..?"

then he was like.. "well.. last time we were kinda close.."

you see.. we'd been best friends thoughout the second half of sec 4.. then during the O's.. we got closer.. and even closer after O's.. you know like chatting online or by sms almost everyday.. and hanging out together with our friends.. it would always be me and him walking or sitting together.. we always had plenty to talk about.. and he was always looking out for me.. cheering me up when i was down.. noticed when i was upset or something.. then slowly i developed a liking for him.. but the thing was.. i never knew whether he felt the same.. he did do some really sweet things for me.. and i suspected there was something going on.. but i didn't really know.. it felt like he liked me back.. yet he didn't really take any action.. so maybe he was just treating me as a really good friend.. after a few months.. we were still close but NOTHING happened.. that's when i started to lose hope.. and soon after we sort of lost touch for some time coz he went to jc and i was busy working and waiting to go to poly.. we always remained as best friends after that..

the rest of the conversation went something like this..

then i was like.. "yea.. you mean after O's that time right..??"

him: "yea"

then he mentioned about one time when i got abit upset because of him..

me: "you know what.. that time when we were really close.. i did kinda like you.. and i thought there was something going on.."

him: "yea.. i thought so too.. but i wasn't sure.. because after what happend with **** (his ex-gf).. i just wanted to take things slowly.."

me: " haha.. well.. i'm the kind who loses confidence and ends up giving up if nothing happens after a long time.."

then we talked about some other stuff..

me: "well.. we finally got that out in the open.."

him: "you make it sound like you have some grudge against me over that.."

me: "no lar.. i mean it like it's some kind of closure.. coz before i didn't really know whether there was something going on.. but now i know there was.."

haha.. and that's it.. we went off the subject after that.. wow.. finally i can put a full-stop to that chapter in my life.. lols.. in the past i always found myself in situations where i didn't get to know the real story or what really happened.. like why did the guy break up with me.. or howcome we were almost like bf and gf but suddenly you lost interest and just forgot about me kinda thing.. i always end up in open-ended situations.. and finally this time i can put a big fat . .. lolz.. not that it really bothered me anymore.. coz that was kinda long ago.. and i've long banished those feelings.. but at least it's interesting to know that i wasn't imagining it and it had been real.. lolz..

woahs.. it's already 6+am in the morning.. time to get some zZzZzZzZz.. nights ..or should i say.. morning people.. =)