confessions..
i once had a best friend back in year 1 and 2.. we always hung out together.. ended up saying the same things at the same time.. shared secrets.. did wacky things together.. camera whored.. shopped til we dropped.. mugged for tests.. and the list goes on and on and on..

but then when we came to year 2 sem 2 and got put into different classes.. things started to change.. we started to grow apart.. we only saw each other during lectures and sometimes after school.. that was when things started to change.. coz we had different time tables and so ended school at different times on different days.. and even when we were together.. things just felt different.. it's like we became strangers over time.. we were so un-updated on each others lives that i didn't even know where to start when it came to conversations.. i could only talk about general stuff..

she got closer to her classmates.. and i stuck with my own.. though i didn't really fit in with the group.. i don't know why.. i just can't connect with them the way i could connect with my other best friends in class.. unfortunately they all ended up in the other class.. probably it's coz those in my class were all to intellectual for me.. or perhaps it was the different lifestyles.. yes.. we did get along.. but we weren't close friends.. i felt quite sad during that point of time.. after school i had nowhere to go and no-one to go with.. luckily i had my baby.. but from then on.. i realized how much of a loner i was.. yes.. i've got many many friends.. but i have few close friends.. it's kind of sad..

even more sad was how from best friends we seemed to have become hi-bye friends.. the kind you say hi too.. perhaps talk a few sentences and then say bye after that.. i miss the good ol times we used to share.. but i guess that's life.. we meet people who are the centre of our universe one day.. and before you know it.. they seem like a distant star.. maybe i didn't do my part on trying to maintain the friendship we had.. maybe it was meant to be.. maybe we were just to caught up with our current lives.. oh wells.. all i can say is..

i miss our friendship..

but i guess it's something that won't come back..